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*faceplams* OI! The morning was great, really, just fine. Was working, went out for the routine walk with my mom and Dragon on speaker phone with us, got back in time for a meeting and....kind of got some questions answered. (Got some cost reports that the auditor that looks into "fixing" things wrong keeps letting things slide rather than fixing them...like no signatures...pages missing....faxed in or emailed from an email that hasn't been approved...these are all no-no's as far as I know, and yet....*~sighs* Anyway, all on the same page now, I think...hope.) I even got to bail out of the meeting early because the rest of the time they'd be talking about stuff that I don't do so I'd just be sitting there bored. (And I was good and didn't have a doughnut.)

So then I'm back at my desk and find myself thinking "Oh, must be getting close to time to go. =3" ....Okay to look at the clock and it's 5 minutes to lunch time. *headdesk* Shortly after noticing that I knock over a cup of orange juice (served at the meeting) all over my desk, which is currently covered in important papers and mail. ~,~ Thankfully it got on NOTHING but my water bottle and stapler (not the electric one).

So get that cleaned up and go stick my frozen meal in the microwave. Well...that's been sitting in the freezer since Wednesday, and it's a cardboard container rather than a plastic one, and well...our office freezer smells like something crawled in it and died, and, despite the sub-zero temperatures, started to decay. My food tasted like this too. Got down maybe five bites and threw it away and had a granola bar for "lunch" instead. 9,9;; May just treat myself to a sushi roll or something when I leave here, just to make my afternoon better and to tide me over until dinner.

Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from Bjorn Lynee

Two different things to share today....and I'm going to go with the really exciting one first. I almost ran over someone yesterday. No....I'm not joking, no I'm not talking figuratively, I /literally/ almost ran over some guy on a skateboard on my way home from work. TTTT~~TTTT I was stopped at a light, my light turned green and I started to go, and suddenly there was someone /right/ in front of me!! With the sun where it was, and everything, he basically came out of my blind spot. I /stopped/ and he went kind of stumble/running the rest of the way across the street (I was in the middle lane) looked like he was trying not to faceplant at first. He came back over and I backed up a bit so he could retrieve his skateboard, and then he came to my window to assure me he was okay. I was way too relieved that he was okay to be mad at him for being an idiot.

........and he was cute. Like....really cute. He wasn't black, but he did have darker skin, and had "black guy" hair. Kind of long, in small little dreads.....bright eyes....cute grin. X3;;; Yeah, he was hot. Helped that he wasn't wearing a shirt either. X3;;; So yeah, I almost ran over a cute guy yesterday. All considering it was almost kind of surreal. 9~9;;

On a happier note. =D I got my hair cut. =D It was a bit past my shoulders and now it's short again. And curly. =D I've not had a purm in /years/, it's kind of nice to have something diffrent. =D It was my birthday present from my parents (along with some essentials I was running low on.....socks.....chapstick....). I've got some before and after pictures....let me see if I can put them up here. My work computer doesn't tend to like pictures on LJ soooo....

Nnnnnnyeah. Pictures won't cooperate here. So I'll put up another post tonight with pictures. =D

Current Mood: =S
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from OCRemix.org

>,o It so very much has....

Me: *washing hair....gets it lathered and rinsed.....okay what next?....proceeds to pick up shampoo again and squeeze another glob into her hand* .................................................No brain...I’ve got no brain today....

Me: *walks out front door*

*Two birds in the tree take offence to this*

Bird1: */squawks!/*

Bird2: *lets out something between a squawk and a.....”hiss”*

Me: *JUMPS! Half expecting one or both to start attacking her!!* =S!!!

Bird1: *flies away*

Bird2: *sits there another moment....then flies away too*

Me: Sorry guys! I didn’t mean to startle you. =S;;; *heads to car....*

Me: *goes through routine before leaving. Set work back in passenger seat, turn on car, buckle up, plug in iPod and start music, leaves....drivedrivedrive.......gets to a stop light about halfway to work and realizes she hears a strange noise.....looking around.....what is it?......music from another car.....internal radio again.......nope.....car radio....never turned her volume up to actually /hear/ the music that’d been playing half the drive already....* 9,9;;;;;;;; *turns volume up to actually listen to her music*

Me: *gets to work....presses button for elevator (works on 6^th floor).....when elevator doors open a guy is already there came up from the parking garage under the buildings.....gets on and gets her floor selected and waits.....elevator stops on 4^th floor and guy gets off.....elevator stops on 6^th floor and gets off.....and finds herself subconsciously expecting to see the guy walking down the hall in front of her......yes.....the one that got off two floors bellow.......* >,<;;;; *rolls eyes and would have face palmed had her hands not been full....almost surprised she didn’t anyway....*

.....Needless to say, this isn’t a promising start to my day. ^,^;;;;;; Not a bad one necessarily, but certainly not a promising one....9,9;;;

Current Mood: *brainless*
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from Bijorn Lynne

Ai ya! This was just one of those mornings.

Me: *laying in bed....awake.....tossing and turning......alarm will be going off any minute now.....any minute.....any minute.....any.....minute......cracks eyes open to see that it’s starting to get light out....frowns.....* Wait a minute... *looks at phone, which also serves as alarm....it’s....nearly half an hour /after/ I normally get up* Aw crap!

And you know...go figure that as soon as I get my phone “woken up” so I can see the screen and the time....it like....beeps at me that it’s charging...and the alarm finally goes off. O,o? All things considered I managed to get out of there on time and to work no problem.

Anyway! The real reasons for this post. *sheeps that she didn’t post this sooner* First thing’s first...I’m go for the endoscopic sinus surgery! I saw the allergy doctor on Monday, and all of the tests they did came back negative. I was expecting that, and...come to find out....so was the allergy doctor. He said that about 20% of patients sent to him from the surgeon’s office....actually have /allergies/ as their main problem, the other 80%...well... He still thinks that I may have some allergy related things going on. He said there are certain cells in our bodies that, when triggered, basically react with an....allergic reaction. Eosinophils I think he called them, or something close anyway. They’re not sure /what/ triggers them, be it a bacteria or a fungus, but...he’s pretty certain that something triggered them in me, and 95% of the time that trigger is a fungus. 9,9;; I ended up with the visual of athletes foot growing inside my face only for him to speak the same visual a few moments later with an apology for such a mental image. I don’t apologize...I must share the ick. >,o.... In any case, if it is a fungus that needs to be treated...the only way to be sure is to get some samples of the stuff way deep in there....which is most easily gotten through surgery. =D

So, at that moment, I’m scheduled for surgery on June 3^rd. I’ve asked for a sooner date, but the surgeon’s schedule is full, so he said he’ll contact me if anything opens up, which I doubt. So yeah...June 3^rd...Is it sad that I’m so excited about having surgery? =2....I know this isn’t going to be a pleasant experience, and I still may end up on treatments afterwards, but....still... *is looking forward to this, regardless*

And my other reason for this post. It’s official. I’M GOING TO ISRAEL!! *spazzflail* You know, most kids have different “dreams” while growing up, things they’d really like to do or be and then they grow up and their interests change. I have to admit that even mine did. I wanted to be a veterinarian at one point, maybe even a doctor or a paramedic....but I grew out of it, and found my love of writing and art. But one thing I didn’t grow out of was my thirst for traveling, my /want/ to “see the world”. I’ve been saying that I want to “see the world” for as long as I can remember, and every time I get to travel to a new place outside of the US, I’m just /ecstatic/, ‘cause it’s one more place that I get to see. ~<3 So it’s official, it’s paid for, and I’m going. *does a happy dance* Trip dates are June 16^th – 26^th. Heh....I’m not gonna be at work much in June. XD;; And vacation time has added up perfectly too, not just for this, but the surgery too. Not counting any /possible/ furlough days I might have, when surgery is done and trip over I’ll have 2 ½ hours of vacation left. =D;;

My /only/....”problem” with this, is that it postpones my moving to GA. Dunno by how long, and that bothers me, but... This does NOT change that I’m moving out there, just pushes the “when” out....again. >,’< *sighs* The only thing that makes me feel okay about this is that I talked to Dragon before paying for the trip (she’s the one I’ll be moving in with when I move out there. =3), and she knows what my going very likely means about my moving, and she’s encouraged me to go for it since “seeing the world” has always been such a big dream for me. =3 *HUGS her adoptive sister*

Woo...so there it is. =3 *can’t wait for June...9,9;;;;*

Current Mood: excited
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from OCRemix.org

I don’t think I posted when this happened. But my cousin, Kent, finally had his surgery. Lots of yucky stuff found in there, and for as much as different hospitals were fighting him on even giving him the surgery right now the surgeon said it was a GOOD thing he had the surgery NOW. Things went well, but after a week or so of recovery he....wasn’t getting much better. High fever and the like, which...usually speaks of infection or leaks. So they had to open him back up. They didn’t find any leaks, or anything that looked like infection. Surgeon thinks that there may have been a leak, but his body took care of it naturally. But they checked everything, clean him out really good, and like Trevor, they’ve had to leave him open to heal...basically from the inside out.

WARNING!! These pictures are NOT for the faint of heart!!

( Oh the inhumanity!!! )

Speaking of surgery. I talked to a head and neck surgeon yesterday about my sinuses. As of now I’ve a tentative surgery date of June 3^rd. It’s been set out so far because he wants to try a few more things first. Part of me is going “UGH NO!!” But I really do understand. Basically what he was telling me was that, if I’m suffering from a chronic infection, then the surgery will /very/ likely help me...and if I’m suffering from chronic exposure to an allergen then the surgery will do squat for me. So he’s got me on antibiotics again for a month, and I’ll be hearing from the allergy clinic soon to set a date to be allergy tested. If they find something then we’ve got time to try some treatments, and if they don’t...maybe I can talk him into moving the surgery date up a little bit....*shrugs* So for as much as I’m going “UGH NO, I WANNA BE DONE WITH THIS!!” I do agree with checking into the allergies, especially since the surgery won’t help if that’s the root of my problem.

So...that’s that! *shuffles off to finally get some work done this morning.......*

Current Mood: *hacking up a lung*
Current Location: My usual chair
Current Music: None....T-T

Bad news first....

I have NOT been sleeping well...I’ve figured out why too. I spent most of last night awake...and unable to breathe through my nose. If I stay on my right side ALL night, I might be okay, never mind the body aches and pains from not moving much all night. But turn onto my back or onto my other side and within minutes I’m stuffed up enough that I can’t breathe though my nose at all. Nose spray does nothing, sitting up helps, but only if I’m upright for nearly an hour. So I’ve spent most of last night trying not to cry in frustration ‘cause that would only clog the sinuses all the more. *SIGHS* I’m so tired of this. Physically, mentally. I’ve been all but /useless/ at work for the past few days because I’m SO tired. I’m really just hoping to get some ideas while I continue to try the loratadine and sinus rinse again. I’m....okay during the day. One moment I’ll be clear enough to be comfortable and an hour later I’m wishing I could drill a hole in my face just under my eye and to the side of my nose to help things drain. >,e...I’ve basically copied most of the above of this to my doctor, begging for some ideas to help me sleep through the night, I don’t know if I can do this much longer.....*SO just wants to lay her head down and sleep*

And the good news!

My Aunt sent this email concerning my cousin Kent (the one with Crohn’s):

“We got surgery scheduled on March 23rd!! He's been pretty sick the last three days so I'm hoping he lasts that long. Both of us thought the surgeon was going to say no because of the way he started out his conversation with us but I guess they have to tell you certain things before they get into what they think. He will have to be in the hospital for 5 days. He has a May 12th back to work date. The surgery is at the Antioch Kaiser which is brand new and has private rooms. They said I could even stay over if I wanted to. So we have good news at last.”

*does a happy dance for her cousin.....then collapses into a snoring heap on the floor of her ~~containment box~~ cubical*

Current Mood: EXHAUSTED
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something with words for once....to help keep me awake. =_=;;

*does a happy dance* Legislature seems to be getting their acts together around here. State employees are still to be furloughed (unpaid, forced day off), but it’s only /once/ a month (was twice until today), and we can take that actual day off anytime we want between....well......March and July 2012. =3 *gets an extra vacation day every month* Granted I get a....what was it? A 4.62% pay cut? Something like that...not quite five....but it’s not an almost 10% cut!!!

So yesterday I was looking at two, predetermined days off every month and a 10% pay cut, today I’m looking at a 5% pay cut and an extra day off earned every month that I can take any time I want just like it’s another vacation day. Not too bad of a deal.

California’s legislature has been in a big fuss over the budget since July last year. They’ve still not settled on anything definitively, but they’re...getting there. And the ONLY reason I’ve been paying this any mind (because I DESPISE government workings with a PASSION) is because is /directly/ affects me and I need to know what I’m doing this Friday...9,9;;

So all the little babies at the capitol have finally decided to compromise just a little and stop shitting so much on all the little people. >,o *stops before she gets all fired up and pissed off, ‘cause at the moment she’s not and doesn’t want to be*

Current Mood: content
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from OCRemix.org

You are indeed a brave soul if you’re reading this.

I kid. Actually this is a good report. I /am/ feeling better. In fact yesterday was the first day that I felt up to specs enough to actually do anything. I spent some time drawing. *is trying to put some examples together of commissions she’s willing to do* I’m back at work today, which is a really good thing. I’ve completely depleted my sick time until next month. *earns eight hours sick leave a month*

Still draining, which is also a good thing. I think I may be frightening some of my co-workers when I blow my nose though. >,o;; I’ve got all this thick bloody stuff coming out still and it takes some work to get it to come out. >,<;; So yeah....I’m sure I’m scaring people with the noises my nose is making. All-in-all I’m definitely feeling better...rather drained now that I’m up and actually /doing/ something, but that’s to be expected.....

Anyway...thought people would like knowing that I’m doing a bit better. =3 Thanks for all the well wishes guys, it means a lot!

Current Mood: tired
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from OCRemix.org

I'm at the point where I really wish I could just pop my head off my shoulders and leave it somewhere until it's done, doing it's thing. And I swear my nose is trying to kill me. >,< On the up side, for as utterly miserable as I've been all week...I think the meds are working. I'm definitely draining. No...no I take that back...I'm not draining....I'm freaking /leaking/. *huffs* One side of my nose is so clogged up that I can blow it and I can't sniff....so it's just.....leaking.... I can't tell you how many times I've stuffed tissue up my nose for a few minutes of relief from the almost constant drippage.

So I've been clogged up, pretty much sleepless, going through tissues like a garbage disposal goes through dumped left overs, and trying my damnedest not to cry 'cause that'll just make it worse. My arm is sore from constantly reaching up and back over my head to where I've got the tissue box, and I'd swear the nose spary I've been using it trying to burn a hole in the lining of my nostrils. =_=;;

And if that wasn't enough, I've developed a yeast infection. >,>...Yay for loads of major antibiotics screwing around with the body. 9,9;; Took a treatment for that today that should take care of it rather quickly, so that shoul be fine....

Complaining aside, some of the "deeper" stuff is staring to come out after.....four days on meds...? Yeah...yeah, started the meds Tuesday morning. I've taken 8 doses of both meds now and as of today I've got some....rather nasty stuff coming up from time to time. It's not constant, but...some of the stuff that's been stuck up in my sinuses for WAY too long is finally coming out, so....progress....even if I am downright miserable. 9,9;;

Anyway...off to take more meds, and....well I would say "consider going to bed", but it's always worse when I lay down so I'm actually dreading going to bed. >,<;;

And for those of you who would like a possibly frightening and maybe humorous insight into my life....

Me: Nose: ........*Bubble! Leak! Yayy! Fun!!*
       Me: !!!!!!!!!!!! *trying desperately to get tissure before it drips*
       Nose: *Whee!! - drop a load on robe*
       Me: =_=;; Yeah....I hate you too.... *blows nose and threatens to stuff tissue up both nostrils if it does that again......* >,>....
Dragon: T~T
Me: And other than giving my nose a personality....that's /not/ an exaggeration. >,< *has dried her robe*
Dragon: Didn't think it was......

Oh look.....and more...9,9;;

Me: *has gone through over half a box of tissues just since yesterday*
Dragon: ......................*isn't surprised* Is that /all/? 9,9
Me: No....that doesn't count the times I've used toilet paper or been in a different room to use tissue from other boxes...

And finally...>,o!!

Me: BLEH!!! *just had a massive glob of chunky yellowish stuff with bloody streaks decide to drop down from the back of my throat and come out my mouth* Eww....=~=;;.....at least it's all starting to come out?
Dragon: About fucking /TIME/ if you ask me............

And this has been a momentary look into the life of me. >,>....Sorry for TMI....*goes to get decongestants and sleep aids now...*

Current Mood: miserably ill
Current Location: My usual chair
Current Music: what's on tv...

As anyone that’s cared to read knows, I went to the doctor’s office yesterday and got a CAT-Scan of my sinus cavity. Got a call from my doctor’s office yesterday afternoon/evening. CAT-Scan shows that I have “severe sinus congestion” (which I could have told him). But the fact that it shows on the C-Scan means that it’s NOT allergies, but, in fact, an infection. Which is why my doctor wanted the scan, so that he could be sure of what he was trying to treat (since the normal allergy stuff wasn’t working). Had it showed to be allergies I’d be going for desensitization shots to help me not be as sensitive to whatever allergies I had....but since it’s not...

I’ve been given two medications to take for the next three weeks in a last ditch effort to keep from having to send me to the surgeon. *crosses fingers* One is an antibiotic (which had the pharmacist shocked and wondering what the hell was wrong with me that I’d be taking an antibiotic for double the time one normally does), and the other....well, honestly I don’t know yet. I didn’t get to speak with my doctor yesterday, just someone from his office to let me know the prescriptions had been called in and where and to let him know how I was in three weeks. I’m gonna email him and see what the other med is doing, if nothing else than to satisfy my own curiosity.

Anyway...I’m hoping this will do the trick. If not, it’s to the surgeon for me and I’d...rather not if I didn’t have to.

Current Mood: bleh...
Current Location: my containment box
Current Music: Something from OCRemix.org

So I went to my appointment this morning. And waited....and waited.....and waited.....and waited....9,9;; What should have been a literal in-and-out appointment turned into an hour wait before the /very/ quick procedure and out again.... I go there early....checked in at 7:30, appointment was at 7:40.....I read for a while.....wasn't called....checked my watch.....7:50. Nnn...radiology can move pretty slow, so I decided to give them another ten, figuring that for /sure/ I'd be called.....8:00....I ask someone to check....I don't think she did....>,> She did come back to me after a moment and say "they should be calling you any time now".

By this point....I'm not feeling well. I don't know what's wrong with me today. I went to bed feeling......ick....and woke up feeling worse, and....now I've been sitting in the waiting room for almost half an hour and....nothing. Ten minutes later I ask again, and am once agian told they should be calling me any time. >,< Too /bleh/ to deal with any sort of confrontation so I manage to squeak out a soft "okay, thank you" and sit back down.

It's now 8:30 and someone comes to me this time. There had been a lady walking the waiting room and just kind of....helping to take care of the people there. She'd the one I'd asked twice now to check for me, and kept getting told to just wait. Now there was a new lady watching the floor and she stepped up to me and.../finally/ I got some real help.

Lady: Have you been helped yet?
Me: I've...checked in, but...no...
Lady: And what time did you check in?
Me: 7:30...
Lady: And what time was your appointment?
Me: 7:40...
Lady: *makes a face as she checks her watch* And what's your last name? I'll see if I can find out what's going on back there.
Me: *tells her, and how to spell it just in case...*
Lady: Okay.... *moves to the receptionist's desk...*

I didn't hear too much of what she said, but apparently the receptionist called back to cat-scan and was telling them that I'd been waiting out here for an hour....yeah and hour.....she's still here, still waiting. Before I heard the receptionist hang up the phone someone came and called me.

And it was quick. Some cat-scans they've got to put an IV in you to put in the solution to make your blood show up better. They weren't looking at my blood vessles though, they were looking at my sinus cavity, so I didn't need an IV. I came in....laid down on the table...waited about two minutes (likely less) for the machine to do it's thing.....was helped up and showen the way out, assured that I'd have my results by main within 2-3 days.

The lady that had helped me out in the waiting room met me as I was shown out, and asked me a few more questions. Apparently what had happened was they couldn't see me slip in the box. I was given a clipboard with a brief questionair and release when I checked in (for the IV stuff mostly, and didn't apply to me anyway), and was told to just hang onto it and give it to whoever called me. What's /supposed/ to happen is I fill it out, take it back to the receptionist and they clip the little slip of paper too it that tells the doctors that I'm there...mostly so they can /see/ that little slip of paper and it's not just hidden in the box....so I was checked in....my slip was in the box....but no one could see it and because they aren't used to having to dig for it, no one thought to dig for it. ....They lady that helped me was heading into the receptionist area as we passed it, said she was gonna talk to the receptionist about proper proceedure so that didn't happen again....

So that was my morning....>,>....as of now...I'm home.....feeling more than a little under the weather.....*collapses* Blargh...

Current Mood: narf...
Current Location: my chair
Current Music: nothing...

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OMG IT'S HAPPENING!!!
Yay for surgery
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FINALLY!!!!!
Another dose of TMI
Do I really need my head?
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..............Oi...

It's been one of those strange and brainless mornings...

OMG IT'S HAPPENING!!!

Yay for surgery

The Bad News and The Good News...

FINALLY!!!!!

Another dose of TMI

Do I really need my head?

Last Ditch Effort. crosses fingers

Bleh...